I’m going to attempt to participate in blogging every day during the month of October. I think this may help me get back into the swing of things. It should also be fun and perhaps inspiring. My focus this month will be 31 Days of Memories. Short fleeting memories. Sad memories. Happy memories, Just little pieces of my life. So, here we go!
October 26, 2013
I have been sick and extremely exhausted for a week and a half. I’m suffering with some sort of upper respiratory gunk that does not seem to want to go away. I’m a bit cranky. While rocking babies to sleep at work I have been beginning to nod off, and that’s a bit scary. I’m also about 6 days late. Perhaps it’s TMI, but my cycle has always been right on the money, aside from when I had to come off of birth control due to the possibility of having a stroke (thanks complex migraines). So, in the back of my head I’m wondering what that could mean. I have two pregnancy tests that I bought for very cheap when a K-Mart nearby was going out of business. I decide I should use one of them today.
I’m very nonchalant about the whole thing. A few times before I had thought I was pregnant, and had been nervous and a little freaked out and tested. This time, however, I’m thinking more than likely it’s just stress that’s causing the disruption in my cycle. I do what I need to do, and go off to hang out with The Nerd (my dear husband).
Once the two minutes are up, I freeze. Having been so calm beforehand, I am now feeling anxious and nervous. I get The Nerd to go in and look for me, because I just can’t do it. He does, and then says something that I still laugh about: “How dark does the line have to be?” I have never been as excited as I was in that moment, aside from the close to 40 weeks later when I first saw my daughter’s beautiful face.
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